Feeling better now.

Yeah, like the title says, feeling much better now. Though my interest in writing's still low, I have taken up drawing instead. I already have made logos of the groups that are going to be used in my stories, and character pics may follow soon after. It doesn't mean that I'll give up writing entirely. I'll still work on them, though updates are slower that what they are as of now, so I'm sorry for a severe lack of updates to them.

Autopilot

Ever since Aleron revealed to us how he was feeling over Skype, I feel like I've been on autopilot. I can't focus on anything for more than a few minutes, I feel down all the time, and I was even literally worried sick last night. Like I said to him in my comment, I'm worried. I know how easy it is when you feel like that to see everything as a potential way to end your life. And I know from experience that people don't commit suicide because they want to die. They do it because they don't want to live. Because they don't see any reason to keep pushing forward in life. Because they just can't stand the pain anymore. I just want Aleron to get through this, and if you're reading this Aleron, please know that none of what I'm going through right now is your fault. I just need to tell someone before I go completely insane. This isn't something you have to go through alone. We are all here for you. I can't stress that enough.

I think I need help...

Several things to say...

1. Interest:

My interest in writing has been on a steady decline recently, and that isn't the only thing that's been going down. I've been losing interest in video games, my favorite hobby, as well. In response to the first segment, I've also found myself sleeping a lot more than usual, even when I'm not tired. I just seem to find a lot more bliss in my sleep than when I'm awake.

2. Writing:

If and when my interest gets low enough, all of my stories will come to a screeching halt, and be on hiatus for who knows how long. My stories are also interwoven, meaning that some events in several stories will have the main character of said story meeting another of the characters. This is a bad move on my part since I have to plan way ahead for the events to unfold correctly, and as such go through hell trying to correct even the tiniest mistake. The plot bunnies are also constantly biting me, adding even more stress to what I currently have. Having thirteen stories, and however so many one-shots, is a massive load, even for me.

3. Daily Life:

I'm having to put up with a control-nut sister, who is two years younger than me, that pretty much bites my head off for even the simplest mistake. That pretty much puts a limit on what I can do. She even goes as far as limiting on how much I can eat of something she makes. I also get accused of some things I didn't even do at times, pushing me even further. Not only that, but the 'scars' on my mind keep popping up. Personally, I hate horror movies, and if I happen to walk in while my sis is watching a particularly horrific part, that scene is stuck there forever, making it hard for me to sleep at times. Worse yet, she won't turn it off even when I have to eat. My family has a rule that we can't eat anywhere else other than the kitchen and dining room, yet my sis doesn't give two shits about it, and when said horror movies are on, I have to risk punishment just so that I can eat and don't get another mental scar.

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God....I really do need help....

Thanksgiving Update

Okay, now. In case anyone was wondering, yes, I did in fact post a chapter on Thanksgiving. Chapter 17 was posted as usual, in the morning. However, in case no one read it yet, I politely request that before reading Chapter 18 this Thursday, read Chapter 17 first. There is a side story that goes along with the game plot here, and it's fairly important. Nothing big! Hope everyone had a nice Thanksgiving! And awesome! I'm the first one to say that!

Hmm... not a whole lot going on right now... Let's see, topics... topics...

1. Ultimate Guitar
2. Sonic Generations
3. School
4. Computer