Sunday, December 4, 2011

Autopilot

Ever since Aleron revealed to us how he was feeling over Skype, I feel like I've been on autopilot. I can't focus on anything for more than a few minutes, I feel down all the time, and I was even literally worried sick last night. Like I said to him in my comment, I'm worried. I know how easy it is when you feel like that to see everything as a potential way to end your life. And I know from experience that people don't commit suicide because they want to die. They do it because they don't want to live. Because they don't see any reason to keep pushing forward in life. Because they just can't stand the pain anymore. I just want Aleron to get through this, and if you're reading this Aleron, please know that none of what I'm going through right now is your fault. I just need to tell someone before I go completely insane. This isn't something you have to go through alone. We are all here for you. I can't stress that enough.