Food for thought

I'm feeling oddly philosophical right now for some reason. I feel like thinking about what FanFiction, or just Fiction in general means. I'm gonna go on a bit of a rant here. If you feel like reading my theories that I am coming up with now, read on. A bit of warning though, it's not very organized, as I write these thoughts as they come to mind.
Fiction, of all kinds (FanFiction included) is a journey. A journey both to far away places, lands that maybe don't even exist, and into the mind of the author. The latter is the one I wish to talk about. This especially holds true with novice writers, and fan fiction writers, as they have not yet learned to filter out their mind's subconscious rantings. Subtle desires work their way to the surface of a piece of work, making themselves apparent to the readers. The author takes this journey with the reader, especially so the less a piece of work is planned out in advance. The author manipulates the characters in a way that they can relate to, or wish to relate to. Some writers depict events that they desire to happen to them, or maybe to someone they know. Regardless of quality, the fiction will reveal something about the author. I tend to find, though, that the more spontaneous, and there fore poorer quality, works, reveal more, as there is less filtering by the couscous mind of what the subconscious is telling. As an example, I will reveal something about myself that some may find a bit strange. I do not, and never have, believed myself to be in the correct body. I will stand in the shower, perfectly still, and just feel. Feel what my body feels like. What it should be. Sometimes, I feel fur, sometimes scales. I usually feel claws and a tail. Sometimes there is more than one tail, and sometimes, I even have wings. It is a hard feeling to describe, and honestly this feels like a weight off my chest to put this out there. Back on topic, I believe that this is where my fascination with both mythological creatures and transformation stories comes from. Then draw the connection to the fact that all of my ideas, including my original idea, have had something to with body changes. My first story, Legend of Lucario was inspired by the movie Pokémon: Lucario and the Tree of Life. The idea was basically, "What if Ash had absorbed more than JUST Lucario's Aura?". I have had MANY of these ideas over the years, both while playing games and watching television and movies, this was just the first I decided to write down. Does anyone remember the old "MegaMan Battle Network" games and the anime "MegaMan: NT Warrior" (Rockman.exe in Japan, where it originated)? I have had many thoughts, and considered even writing stories about Lan (Netto) ending up in the Cyber World, or MegaMan (Rockman) ending up in the real world. The ideas don't end there though. Usually, Lan (Netto) ends up becoming part Net Navi or program of some sort. Back to the topic, I think these ideas and thoughts reflect my personal subconscious desire to be something else, physically. What does this mean? Well, if someone, for example, writes many romance stories, people falling in love, and living happily ever after, may have a BIG crush on someone, or maybe something more. Stories about revenge, sparked from a large fight or conflict that the author was unsatisfied with the outcome of.

Please keep in mind that these ramblings came, unfiltered, from my crazy brain. This is all just speculation, and could be off base, or they could be eerily accurate. So writers, ask yourself, what do you write about, and what does it say about you as a person?